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PROCESS

by Samora Pinderhughes

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I wrote this song in the midst of a low time. About loss, about shame, about grief. I wrote it to try and be kinder to myself. It asks questions about what honesty sounds like, what care feels like. I wrote it to counteract the ways that we are all taught to bury so much about us, so much that we feel. I wrote it to honor what pain really feels like, and what grace hopefully looks like.

What's your Process?

- Samora

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PROCESS (the truth)

There’s some things that I don’t wanna admit,
So I try not to think about it
There’s a lot of ugly things in my heart
And I just hope to the lord I don’t slip

I wonder what it’s like to let it out,
That part of me that I’m so afraid of
It holds on me and tosses me about
It doesn’t seem to be something I get away from

Tell me, How do you name those well-kept secrets,
That you never say out loud?
And why does the body see these demons,
But keep me from calling out?

I guess I’ll just say it’s a process...
One day, at a time
There’ve been weeks when I already lost it
But I came back every time

....

There’s a whole entire world that I’ve created in my mind
And it’s so much more real than the one I see outside
I’ve populated it with people who can see that I’m no good
And who know all the best places where I can go to hide

And I’m haunted by the ghost of my best friend
Who just left me to head to the next world
But I’d like to believe it’s the west end
With a room full of art and his best girl
It’s a positive thing I can feel him
But I don’t know if I took advantage
Of the times he was right in the next room
‘cause my pain was such I couldn’t stand it

(Tell me,)
How do you name those well-kept secrets,
That you never say out loud?
And why does the body see these demons,
But keep me from calling out?

I guess I’ll just say it’s a process...
One day at a time
There’ve been weeks when I already lost it
But I came back every time

....

When you ask me what’s wrong,
you might think I don’t hear you
But that’s not the case
I just might not respond,
I don’t want to be near you
‘cause I’m so ashamed
I’ll keep the TV on,
And just let it wash over
All of these many fears
And hope I wake up less weary
Tomorrow mornin’

(WORDLESS SECTION)

LAST CHORUS - REPEATED
I guess I’ll just say it’s a process
guess I’ll just say it’s a process
One day at a time
There’ve been weeks when I already lost it
But I came back every time
Yes, I came back every time.

lyrics by Samora Pinderhughes

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released July 29, 2020
composed by Samora Pinderhughes
performed by Samora Pinderhughes
produced by Jack DeBoe

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Samora Pinderhughes New York, New York

Samora Pinderhughes is a composer, filmmaker, and interdisciplinary artist known for striking intimacy and carefully crafted, radically honest lyrics alongside high-level musicianship and cutting visuals. He works in the tradition of the black surrealists, those who bend word, sound, and image towards the causes of revolution. ... more

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